As I read the letter from Hibiscus's parents the first time, my heart leaped into my throat again and again. No wonder Hibiscus is in such a mood, I thought. My chest felt like a black void where my heart should beat.
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How could they be so incredibly misguided? Well, I thought, since they have not asked, and even when they have, they have not ( Read more... )

Sub-Title: Shameless, Immortal, A Goddess Embodied on Earth
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"What feeling do you want to have?" Teal asks in her video, How To Feel Better; Feeling Signatures.
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I want to feel entirely safe and loved. I want to feel like anything I want is only moments, days or weeks away. I want to feel like my imagination really is the limit. I want to feel my ( Read more... )

"Do you visit Silverstag often?" I asked a friend of Otter and Polecat.
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"No, not really. This is the only time I've been. Just visiting Otter and Polecat on a whim," he replied.
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I chuckled, "Yeah, I was visiting on a whim in August, and then I never left . . ."
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"Fancy!" He exclaimed "Do you like it at Silverstag?"( Read more... )

Was it a portent of the year that on the first day of 2016 I woke from a nightmare?
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The earliest part I could recall was standing in a building that was cluttered with many boxes, some open and some closed. Paladin and a woman were sorting through the boxes. I wrote this about that aspect of the dream: "Paladin had become the owner of a store of ( Read more... )

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Thursday morning I woke from a dream that clearly could have been a nightmare, but narrowly escaped being one.
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There was a haunted house of sorts. I had been inside once before I knew. In the dream I thought of it only symbolically as a dark cloud, and didn't think of it as "haunted." After waking it was obvious to me that this was a "castle of the ( Read more... )

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Monday morning I woke fully rested after ten hours of sleep. I had dreamed of wandering around through a huge house belonging to Paladin's parents. I was avoiding them, trying to find Paladin. When I awoke it wasn't obvious to me what this was about, but when telling the dream to Hibiscus it became apparent to me that the dream was a metaphor for ( Read more... )

The end of July was fast approaching. I'd been traveling so long, that traveling felt like my natural state of being.
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I was losing my dreams of community, the dreams I'd held for ten years. Perhaps I just wanted to live with Paladin, alone. I wanted him to find work and support me. I wanted him to be a raw foodist. He wasn't meeting my needs, and feverish and sick, I finally demanded more.( Read more... )